I'm a bit behind on my birthday posts.  I never posted about Mary's FIRST birthday party.  I did post about HER and how fabulous and wonderfully delicious she was, but I never followed up with all the birthday deets. my childrens' birthday parties are fun to dream up.  I talk about them to my husband, friends, and my mom almost constantly the month of.  I imagine all the little people running around and I just like putting a good portion of my energy into executing these parties. So, life in rewind, all the way back to the weekend of may 24th...whatever day that fell on. A VERY MARY PICNIC: I got the idea for Mary's first birthday party due to the constant amount of picnic-ing we do on a regular basis.  it was such a simple, yet cozy setting. birthday preparations are my all time favorite.  pic-a-nic: I was very pleased with this little theme and how it ...

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almost six years ago i was trusted to be a mommy.  and in that moment, the thought of him starting kindergarten seemed an eternity away.  time stood still. but then what seemed like two weeks later, it was time to watch him fly.  the week leading up to his actual first day was so emotionally exhausting.  i would tear up at the very thought of watching his book bag swallow his back as he walked away from me.  i would tear up when i would blog about it.  i would tear up when someone would ask me anything about it.  and sometimes, i'd lose it and have to go blow my nose and wipe the flood off my face.  i felt like a lunatic and didn't give a single crap how silly i might have seemed. but right now, after two days in, i'm not crying.  i'm not saying that i'm adjusted and he's ...

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a very wise woman whom I look up to in many ways (and has the prettiest lean arms I've ever laid eyes on) gave me the best advice as we were racking our weights after my bodypump class. even though i'm a really good talker, I do like to listen.  and that day, I grew.  we were talking  I was mostly talking (she's a gifted listener and i'm a gifted talker) and she effortlessly made such a profound statement.  and it blessed me.  she said, "don't strive for perfection, strive for excellence." she went on to say, "because there is a huge difference." and it shook me.  I immediately went into self evaluation mode.  I even got a little anxiety as I began to self evaluate.  oh no, I thought, I'm not sure which I strive for.  I have to fix it. haha.  and that is exactly the point she was trying to make without ...

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this blog is kind of like a bank account for all my happiness.  it's where i make all my deposits as I scroll through pictures that I've snapped through the week.  I want to remember those sun-kissed cheeks eating raspberries by the handful while staining up her frilly bathing suit.  I want to remember a random walk around the block on a random Wednesday after lunch simply because Nathan thought it would be a fun thing to do as a family.  I also like to deposit a little of where my honest and raw heart is because it's oh so cleansing for me to peck these keys with my happiness...and my heaviness.  it just is. some women crave chocolate.  I crave writing in my mostly-happy blog.  I am definitely carrying around a little bit of a heavy heart lately.  nothing earth shattering, but heaviness even still.  i like a little bit of heavy in my life ...

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it's no surprise here that I am a total health and fitness enthusiast.  it completely changed the course of my path about fifteen years ago when I began to defeat an eating disorder.  those days were dark.  those days were very real in my life.  i had no desire to be healthy.  i just wanted to be thin, loved, accepted, and good enough.  the knowledge that the health and fitness world has provided has saved my life.  and i've since chased it down with all my heart.   i've never had this kind of passion in any other area (besides raising a family).  some of the saddest people i've ever met are those who don't really care deeply about any one thing.  they lack passion.  i believe that passion and contentment go hand in hand.  without passion, happiness will only be temporary.  but passion will make that happiness last.  and health and fitness has proven to ...

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i feel like starting this post off on a complain(ish), whine(ish), negative(ish) foot.  because let's face it, it's good to hear that life gets bonkers over here.  doesn't it? well it does.  daily.  hourly! you see, it's lucy.  she's....ummmmm, SUUUUUUUUUUUPER STRONG-WILLED.  and i like it.  when i noticed she was strong, i patted myself on the back.  she got from me.  boy am i ever strong.  with strength comes determination, which breeds perseverance and drive, which can lead to beautiful things.  but right now we have not yet arrived to those said beautiful things.  yet!!   since my girl is so powerful in her battles, i try to chose them wisely.  when it comes to fashion, i let her have a healthy amount of control.  but i think it has gotten out of hand.  she takes her power, and totally becomes a complete butt-hole.   judge me, i don't care.  you weren't there. i give ...

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