i like who i am.  in it's entirety.  and that is a very important part of this post. and if that sounds conceited, extremely uppish, big headed, and persnickety...then let it be.  i've learned a powerful life lesson this past year.  it has been learned with a great deal of hurt and pain.  but it's been a good thing.  a GOD thing, actually.  i'm learning how to really live in the fullest amount of peace that the Lord has to offer.  I've conquered how to live a happy and joyful life, that, i've got in the bag.  but i always get side swiped when folks perceive me wrongly and falsely.  i want to spin my wheels showing them my heart.  that it's pure.  good.  and that they have me pegged wrong.  i laugh as i just re-read that last paragraph.  because it's embarrassing as i've replayed some of my efforts at disproving someone's opinion of me.  yes, i am ...

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My homeschooling journey started out simple... Nathan's birthday is August 25th. The Kindergarten cut-off is September 2nd.  He would have been the youngest in his class.  As his number one advocate, I just knew he wasn't ready last year.  He was ready to learn the material, but not ready socially and emotionally.  Mama's just know these things. I decided to order the full Kindergarten curriculum and give him a head start in his education.  But something happened... I actually enjoyed homeschooling.  I loved seeing him grasp new concepts like: reading, perfecting his ability to write, our world, our climate, basic mathematics skills, and the list goes on. I began to vision this as a lifestyle for our family.  I was convinced.  I was a homeschooling mama.  I was balanced at keeping him socially stimulated.  He was thriving.  It was a no-brainer.  Homeschooling was it for our family. And here is where I slammed on the brakes and had to reconsider my hearts desire.... The husband was ...

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it's days like this, when the good Lord gives you a break in the midst of a rough patch.  days where you feel defeated by your toddler, drowning in laundry, hurt by others, and overwhelmed with your own mind.  yes, you read that right.  I am overwhelming.  I set myself to standards that are nearly impossible to maintain.  I'm slowly starting to realize that i take on to much.  i never say no.  and i allow other people's opinion of me to overstay it's welcome in my heart.  i get saddened by this often because i hate being misunderstood.  maybe it's a lack of confidence, although i feel that i have a healthy amount of confidence.  or maybe it's something deeper.  who really knows.  the only thing i know for sure is that i am getting better with age.  not that i'm old, but i'm caring less and less about what other people think which allows me to go ahead and be my ...

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