we are fans of changing things up, hence a pretty drastic (albeit, awesome!) move to central illinos. however, sometimes it's not the most appropriate time for a change of plans.  like, maybe it's not the exact time to come forth with the flu-like bug/fever/chills/body-aches, on Christmas morning.  except lucy and i didn't get the memo.  i woke up feeling nauseated.  i held it together long enough to excite in all the fables.  santa ate his cookies, check: the reindeer ate all their food, check: (i had maybe a tablespoon left of oats, so our reindeer had quinoa and cous-cous. haha!) and what do you know?  santa left behind presents AND snow cover footprints (which smelled an awful lot like baby powder).: during the opening of presents, i sucked it up.  i didn't even make mention to the husband that i wanted to hurl all over the place.  i was dead set on watching nathan receive his ever-so-longed-for ...

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oh that first snow.  it's happening.  like, right this very minute.  i haven't seen snow in almost nine years.  nathan and lucy haven't seen snow............EVER!! until today. after a little living room sistah-slam--oh wait, you don't know what that is?  well, it's what i call my weekly workouts with my sister-in-law, chandella.  she comes to my living room gym and her membership is free.  'cause we sistah's yo.  and we workout together.  and i like it.  okay, back on track.  after our workout, i begin to hear rumors of the first snowfall.  husband and i were polishing off our CHRISTmas shopping  (we're DONE, by the way!!), and i kept looking up in the sky, allowing the gloomy, separated clouds to take me back to the days when we'd hover around the windows in north carolina, waiting.  waiting on snowfall.  i no sooner get home from shopping, put all the littles down for a nap, and ...

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how can i help? that has been the question that has taken precedence in my brain since i've heard about this awfully unfortunate shooting. and sadly, there isn't anything i can personally do for any single one that was affected, but pray.  and even then, i don't know what to pray.  so i just cry instead.  the bible says to weap with those who weap, so i weap.  i'm saddest tonight for all those parents.  coming from a mama's heart, i'm just devastated for all the moms and dads that lost their little nathan, lucy, or mary.  it makes my stomach knot up and my eyes pour of tears.  i just hate this reality for those families.  how can i help?  it keeps ringing in my head.  i can't escape this need that is burning inside of me to help.  and there really isn't much i, or anyone, can do.  the damage is done.  just ...

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a full heart.  i love those.  right now, i have one. it's quite amazing what a brief break from your children can do for you.  last week was one of my tougher weeks.  i was so preoccupied trying to learn all this BodyPump material for a weekend that was supposed to be a complete killer on my body, while still keeping up with home school, housework, laundry, cooking, and all-things-motherly..........all while being soft spoken and kind to everyone.  well, lets just say that i am not aiming to be the person i was last week.  that person was way to high strung for my liking.  at one point i really felt like giving up on my true passion (aside from being a mother), which was furthering my knowledge for health and fitness.  it just seemed so overwhelming; the amount of information that i was to obtain in such a short period.  i never want ...

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this week sure did show me who's boss.  and quite honestly, i kind of won...except i did not. i am always reading articles and books about parenting.  or you can find me in a corner talking to a fellow mommy about my weaknesses and strengths while trying to grab any thing good from her, or heck, hear another mama tell me that she's just as stressed out. i've noticed that when i do not continue to keep my mind focused on positive parenting-by way of reading up and staying fresh, that i do not deal with my children in the way that i desire.  and by reading up, i'm talking about the word of God.  that is where i begin to operate in HIS sweet and perfect peace.  the kind of peace that even though mary is screaming, lucy and nathan are fist fighting, dinner is being burnt, and the house is a complete and utter mess, simultaneously, i can still walk ...

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overwhelmed mama here.  everything seems to be piling up to no avail.  my emotions seem extra tender, my energy is totally zapped since i've had sick kids.  nathan and lucy do NOT like each other lately, constant bickering.  mary is teething.  lucy is super whiny.  and nathan is doing little things, intentionally, to antagonize lucy, which sends her on a tail spin, which sends the level of stress in this house through the roof.  this week is when i need my spirits high and my energy higher as i get prepared for a hardcore, butt-kicking that i'm about to receive this weekend.  i'm getting certified to teach BodyPump.  it's a killer.  and it's two full days of getting prepared to teach one of the worlds best workouts.  strength training like you've never seen before.  this class will undeniably take your fitness to the next level.  i'm thrilled to have been chosen by the YMCA to get trained, but i'm a ...

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