(this post was supposed to be about crafting, house guests, and an awesome perfect family day, but i got vulnerable instead.  oh well, it started out that way.) when you decide to add glitter to a craft, you have decided to commit.  you fall subject to glitter showing up in your stir fry later on that evening, and only God himself knows how it got there.  and, even though you did the glitter project at the kitchen table-which is three doors (and a hallway) down from the master bathroom, you will still somehow notice glitter sitting there-shiny as ever, on your toothbrush.  so, if you ever receive a gift from us with glitter on it, near it, or around it, please note that we love you and you were worth the clean up.  our recent glitter crafting was to transform our fall, pine cone leftovers into Christmas tree ornaments. we are delivering them this week to certain family members.  ...

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show of hands here, please. is it or is it not a lot of work to cook the whole thanksgiving feast, decorate the place into a fabulous oblivion, clean up all the droppings and scattered dishes, all while making it in time to another thanksgiving feast later that day...............................................all while fighting cancer? that is right, folks.  my mama is amazeballs.  she just can't help herself.  however, she opted not to host thanksgiving this year (first time ever!) since it fell two days after her chemo treatment, and that has proven to be her day of pain to no avail.  except no, she straight up hosted it anyway (little stinker!!).  it was last minute.  and i got so mad at her for not resting instead.  because that is what daughters do, they try to fix help their mama's out.  when really, cooking, hostessing, and being the very last one to sit down and eat makes my sweet ...

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i love to escape throughout the day to nurse mary to sleep.  i get this special time with just her before her two naps as well as her last feeding of the evening.  nathan and lucy have, (for the most part) figured out that being self sufficient and quiet during those quick ten minutes is expected.  and i take full advantage of those ten minutes to grab my random bouts of social media with my iphone: facebook, instagram, pinterest, and texting .  or, if the day is calling for it, i pray for a little more patience as mine seems to be dwindling. today's special mary  "me" time was spent rocking in the glider, with my eyes closed, smiling, as i began to tally up my THANKfuls.  i made note of them and am more than happy to share. THANKFULS: (and this only touches the surface of how incredibly thankful i am) *my faith.  would suffocate without my daily help.  ...

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i'm making headway over here.  and i like it. i'm growing in ways that i truly believe will only positively affect my life.  you see,  i used to care what other people thought about me. to a fault.  i still care what other people think, however, it's not to a fault anymore.  it doesn't turn my world upside down when someone might misunderstand me, or if i rub someone the wrong way.  and well, i'm completely fine if not everyone likes me.  gasp, did i just say that?  and beautifully enough, i mean it.    this is huge for me.  HUGE I SAY!!   but most importantly, it's freeing.  i'm currently walking in this new found confidence i have within myself that as long as i love myself, and am seeking inner growth on a continual basis, other people's opinions of me aren't valid.  i'm validated in Christ.  he knows my downfalls and my ...

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about five minutes after the husband left for work this morning, i called him up and matter-of-factly stated, "ya know, our morning thoughts determine the quality of our day.".  he pauses for a minute, and before he could get a word in edge wise, i abruptly state, "i just had to share that with you because it's just so darn true.  and i love you.". i wasn't trying to dive into a deep conversation while he's navigating to his first job (at 7:30 a.m.), but he already knew that by the nature of my call.  he knows that i randomly call with little pep talks (which are usually for myself) but i feel like if i don't give it to someone, i'll bust inside.  this morning, as i was having my perfect, first cup of coffee, i began to purposefully stick my nose into the canal of my cup and take a ...

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nothing like meandering on about your business, having a fun-filled and extra rich week, when bam, out of the blazing blue, you get sick.  i felt it coming on friday with a few sneezes here and there, so i did my regular combat-the-sickness-before-it-progresses protocol: double up on zinc and vitamin C, steer clear of diary and sugar since it weakens the immune system, eat lots antioxidant rich foods, and get plenty of rest (haha, that last one cracks me up because lots of rest is just foreign to me since i have a house (and heart!) full of littles.). oh well, i gave it my best, but i still got it.  i wasn't confined to the bed by no means but i was so weak, tired, sore, and just overall miserable.  i woke up sunday feeling like i did the day after i ran my half-marathon; except it wasn't the ...

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i'm not a complainer.  i always feel this stupid guilt if i complain, like i'm being ungrateful or something.  and i try to polish up a complaint with an immediate positive response.  that might sound weird, and it probably is, but it has been a great little way to turn some rotten days around, quickly. i'm blaming my recent crap attitude on daylight savings time.  is that okay?  until this morning, my days have started at 5 a.m. (DISLIKE!!).  first day i was all confident that it was only going to be for that day.  then monday came and i was greeted at my bedside by two very rested and eager-to-rise lovecups.   then tuesday.  same story, different morning.  then wednesday.  same story, different morning.  and by this time, i'm seriously getting slightly majorly angry at the 5 a.m. business.  these littles needed to figure it out.  ASAP!!  mama was hurtin'.  yes, mama has energy, but only if ...

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it's no surprise that i'm a fall loving, leaf-pile jumping, pumpkin dessert making kind of girl.  there is just something about the shift from summer-to-fall that makes the whole universe happy.  no seriously, it's true, everyone gets jacked. i'm going to go out on a limb here and speculate that it's because of the holidays.  all the festivals and festivities, the pumpkin and peppermint lattes, the red cup from starbucks miraculously shows back up, the favorite casseroles get made, the oven houses more baked goods, and you can't hardly keep from singing Christmas carols a little early, and on and on and on .  fall makes way for bumper-to-bumper holidays.  it's each family's chance to create their own special traditions and memories.  novemeber marks a very special family tradition in this house.  it's random acts of kindness month.  each act of kindness involves our children and we do something kind for each day in november.  husband and i love ...

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after getting that horrific phone call that my dad had passed away, i made some super quick arrangements and necessary decisions.  i knew i was going to need the husband since he is my rock.  and i knew that it wasn't going to be the best situation for having three children needing something at all times while trying to orchestrate a beautiful celebration of life service.  i also knew that there was going to be a heaviness that was unstoppable.  a heaviness that, quite frankly, i didn't want my children to feel.  a heaviness that i am certain they will never feel.  ever! so i left my babies behind, except mary-she's to teensie to part with.  it was hard (like, really really hard) but they were in the best-of-the-best of hands. last week was just tough.  my heart broke in several different directions, on so many levels.  darkness and sadness filled up my days.  past hurts were ...

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