God bless the husband.  he has a slight lunatic on his hands at the moment. i greet him this morning with a cup of coffee in one hand, and a real genuine, "listen babe, i am so so sorry", as i wait for his response.  "sorry for what?", he quickly states.  that was just the response i had premeditated him saying.  "i'm just very overwhelmed, stressed out, and sad.  i love it here.  i'm equally as amped, excited, and ready to be in illinois with everyone.  so, i'm just in freak mode, and i just want to apologize ahead of time for being a complete jerk face this week.  cool?". he laughs.  "i'm dead serious, not joking around.", i strongly rebuttal.  so we shake on it.  i have permission to be a jerk.  yay!! i decided that last week would be normal for my littles in terms of schedule, home school, regular play ...

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i would love to be in a heavy robe, with coffee in one hand, and a blueberry muffin in the other, while looking out of a bay window to a beautiful dusting of snow.  it's nice when mother nature leaves no choice but to stay in your jammies, play board games, and suit up for a good round of sledding, all while shoveling down that fattening, snow day food. i remember those days and yearn for them a little bit every winter.  i remember when i was younger hearing the forecast and rushing to the nearest food market to stock up.  snow day food consisted of muffin mix, hot chocolate, chili fixings, cornbread, brownies, and other frivolous junk that finds its way in the cart.  and of course keeping those fingers crossed that all the bare necessities were still available; milk, bread, eggs, etc. i'm a florida mama who loves this bright, sunshiny state with every ...

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oh boy, here comes a pretty spiritual/ADHD kind of post.  either quit reading if you're not in the mood for such rambling, or read on.  i'm just warning you. **** for starters, my neck hurts.  mary wakes usually twice a night to nurse and i spent from 2 a.m. until 5 a.m. with my neck half hanging off the rocking chair, and half hovered over mary as i slept through the next feeding this way.  it wasn't intentional.  it was exhaustion-driven. this happens with each child and this happens to be the first time with mary.  so to me, it's jot-downable.  so there, i jotted it down. **** i'm so excited about this next little ramble that i can't hardly take it.  as i'm riding in the van with my family, i hear lucy say, "mommy, i'm cold...mommy, i'm cold.".  i didn't respond because i was in a tune-the-kids-out mode.  but nathan responded for me. here is the conversation coming from the ...

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kids have a cute way of sparking your memory.  nathan comes up to me, saying, "mommy, can you help me find the other piece to this? (while holding up a toy that only works with it's missing link.)".  right as i take off, headed straight to the spot where his little toys is, he ever-so-graciously says, "i know you'll find it, you're the best finder ever!!".  talk about pressure.  but, in true mama fashion, i walk straight to his beloved, missing toy.  which only brought me back in time, to when i would run in the living room, saying, "mama, have you seen my cheer leading shoes?", and she wouldn't even bat an eye, "yep, one's under the couch and the other is by the laundry room.".  i remember thinking how freakishly cool she was for always knowing where everything was.  mama's really are, "the best finders ever!!".  *** on a much heavier ...

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i'm not a singer.  and it isn't because i sound horrid, although i do.  it's just because i don't enjoy it.  but i am a writer.  and it's not because i write really good, because if you are an english teacher, your red pen would have a hay day on my grammar mistakes. but i enjoy writing.  so that makes me a writer. when you find something that you enjoy to do, something that serves as a retreat, you just do it.  as with being a runner-i'm never the fastest,  but i'm still very much a runner.  running and writing are just a few little avenues that give back to me, so i do them. while i'm busy caring for my family, i never forget to care for myself.  i make it a point, every single day, to do something that makes me happy.   regardless of whether it's a hot bath, painting my toes, thrift ...

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all i wanted to do was drink my first cup of coffee this morning.  is that really to much to ask for?? i woke up extra exhausted, and extra pissy.  i hate when i start off on the wrong foot.  i can usually make a few mental efforts at fixing my attitude which in turn fixes my mood and changes our daily grind. not today.   i woke up and happened to glance over at the laundry basket bleeding over in my bedroom.  and for some reason, it just set me off.  i felt bombarded with little chores.  i wanted to get laundry done, sort and organize the toys, and get a few homeschool lessons planned out-some fun ones. well, i really just wanted to go back to sleep.  and i wanted coffee. after passing out fresh diaper changes, i make my way to the kitchen to brew up some coffee.  i felt overwhelmed ...

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when i see it in pictures, it really its me.  i have three children.  count 'em... 1...2...3...!!! so cool.  so blessed. there are a few things about lucy that i feel you need to know. 1.  when she suggests that she must wear her wellies, "E-cuz it's waining outsiiiide", you put sister in a side ponytail, and go on about your business. 2.  she's just pretty awesome in general.  3.  and bossy. 4.  and has the most electric personality.  ever!! her age is so much fun.  and so much hard.  but cute to the last drop.  *** the weekend before last while i wasn't busy putting together an angry bird bash, i was glued to the television watching out for issacs storm path.  we were right in the midst, and i'd be lying if a large part of me didn't want to evacuate to north carolina and hug my mama.  and she'd be lying if a large part of her wasn't kind of wishing the ...

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