And so it begins... nathan's first day of Kindergarten.  Lucy's too!! i've been meaning to sit down and write about our first-ever week of homeschooling.  i had no idea what to expect as we took on something so new and inevitably challenging.  i imagined that it would kick off nice and smooth since it's all so new.  and while i don't have a plethora of challenging moments to chart-although stay tuned, they will happen, i do have an update nonetheless. our morning lessons usually start out with lucy completely zoned out to the little activity i have set up for her.  her attention span is that of a two-year-old, so this only lasts about ten minutes.  and really, i'm very proud of my big girl for lasting that long.  however, those ten minutes are filled up with, "mommy, i drawded dis, see?", and things of the like. so i hold her and i ...

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nathan's birth date strikes a different nerve in me than the others.  simply because august 25th 2007, my whole world changed.  my heart went to a place that was unbelievable.  i remember hearing other women trying to describe it, but i didn't get it. and in an instant, i got it.  all of it!!!  i remember being overwhelmed with how much i loved him.  i would call my mom sobbing, saying, "i love him so much...i just...it's crazy.".  i finally knew this thing called a mother's love that i had heard about all my life, and it's the realest thing i've ever felt.  no doubt that i am blessed to have experienced this exact same love three times over. this birthday was a really big deal to me.  he's five.  FIVE!!  the year he will most likely loose those baby teeth. and while that might not seem like a big deal to anyone ...

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i've second guessed my homeschooling decision while simultaneously feeling 170% certain that this is the right move.  all the second guessing comes from listening to others opinions.  i might be stubborn (okay okay, i AM stubborn), but when it comes to ultimately affecting my child, i'm open to every opinion. ultimately it came down to the decision that was made a very long while ago, when i felt a peace cloud hover around me.  that was my undefying moment, i was to homeschool my boy.  after all, he is still four (until this saturday), and he just isn't ready.  i'm his advocate, and his biggest fan.  i've got more time to invest in him than any teacher with the best intentions out there. so allow me to take the reigns, saddle up, and go on this beautiful, albeit-wild journey.   i'm officially ready.  and boy does that feel good.  especially since those last minute loose ends have ...

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i love this moment.  i'm locked up in my bedroom while baby sleeps and husband plays with the older two.  i'm writing.  it's raining.  i have a fresh cuppa.... people are sweet.  they spill out mommy compliments to me all the time.  and while yes, i've never tried harder at anything in my life as i do at being a really good mother, i still fall short.  and that is why i have decided to have a little confession hour. tattle tale on me-self.... *i consciously and purposefully nursed mary after a sweaty workout without bothering to wipe it off.  yuck!! and salty.  and sorry baby. *i ignore nathan and lucy sometimes.  i can hear a battle rise in their bedroom.  and i can even hear the unkind things that they are saying to one another, and i choose to continue folding the laundry, loading the dishwasher, or texting my girlfriend.  this makes me ...

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my cousins are so much fun. and cool. and gorgeous. and hilarious. and crazy. what i find odd about this past weekend was how it was actually all planned out.  and that is just so not us.  we are the spur-of-the-moment-fly-by-the-seat-of-our-pants kind.  nowadays, we must plan since we have families.  and i'm so glad we planned for a mini cousin reunion. i'm also glad that i got to carpool with cousin andrea and her crew. see, she's gorgeous!! it might not sound like loads of fun to pile under one roof with eight littles and six adults, but you weren't there.  (unless you're my cousin reading this, in which case, you were there.  and hi, i love you!!) i wrote about lindsay's house in this post, it's the bomb-diggidy.  it's plenty big for a cousin pile up.  and she just might be the best hostess alive.  you walk in, dump all your belongings, and never ...

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yuck!  sorry but i'm currently chewing on a vitamin C tablet as i try and combat these watery eyes and sporadic sneezes.  i don't feel like this will escalate into anything, but i am darn sure going to use my vita-wisdom just in case. that has absolutely nothing to do with this post.  i might delete it.  no, i'm leaving it.  yuck!!  moving on... oh for the love of mary, my sweet and teensie-weensie newest babe.  i am completely taken by her.  i've had her features memorized since the first hour i spent with her.  she is undeniably perfect to me.  i love the untainted purity that a newborn possesses.  the sweet new breath.  the sound of her nursing in the middle of the night.  and the way her eyes lock with mine.  she fits into our little world better than i ever imagined.  she has me swooned, that mary. the whole house ...

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I.  AM.  DELUSIONAL. because my brain thinks this way: and since i can't convince myself otherwise, i've been working hard to make my "classroom" super cute.  now lets get real, i don't really have a classroom, i just have one really fantastic kindergartner.  which is why i decided to give my lesson planning area a face-lift.  and not to mention a pretty sweet place to blog. i will be spending a great amount of time here every evening, as i plan for the next day.  it had to be fabulous.  and it needed to make me smile.   now that my little area is complete, our school year should be good-to-go without a single hiccup??  smooth sailing??  right??   i'm totally joking.  i am fully aware that i will face a whole new set of challenges as i willingly take on this load.  but it's a journey that i'm prepared to face.  i'm confident that we will ...

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i have so many thoughts running through my mind at this very moment. like: *i would go totally vegan if i could still have goat cheese and coffee creamer.  i am going to give coconut milk a try.  we shall see. *i love when they zoom in on the mama's in the olympics.  it's precious. *i wish nathan would quit waking up lucy during his 5 am bathroom visits.  they do go back to sleep, thankfully. *i'm not organized as i'd like to be for my homeschooling journey, but i'm getting there.  but very excited to be my sons first teacher. *i need a laminating machine. *nathan's fifth birthday is coming up at the end of this month. it's an angry bird shindig.  i'm stoked, but soooooooooo not ready.  i'm a professional procrastinator.  i've got this!! *i want an iced coffee. *i really need to start getting in bed earlier.  but it's my only down time and i wear it out to the ...

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